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Stupid, stupid, stupid
I must read emails more carefully, to avoid completely missing invitations to things & thus offending people. :-(

I must stop being crap and avoidant about email; and I must stop using LiveJournal as a substitute for email, even if it feels much less stressful for some reason.

I must stop taking so many days of non-stop stressy procrastination to get job applications written. Miffy pictures are no substitute for a salary.

I must stop fretting nervously about things I can't possibly influence in any way.

I must stop fretting nervously about things I can influence, because if I carry on feeling this nervous I'll probably fuck them up just because I'm in such a state.

I must GO TO BED before 1am, especially when I have to get up in time to get into work at 9am.

I must get a job that doesn't make me feel so sick at the thought of going into work that I'm even avoiding going to sleep just because I know that when I wake up I'll have to immediately start getting ready for work. :-(

Current Mood: shattered, frustrated
Now playing: tATu, "How Soon Is Now?"

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huskyteer From: huskyteer Date: September 9th, 2003 01:10 am (UTC) (Link)
> I must get a job that doesn't make me feel so sick at the thought
> of going into work that I'm even avoiding going to sleep

Ugh. I felt like this when I was temping for the Metropolitan Police. I had to go to the cinema every Sunday evening because otherwise I'd just sit around moping as the hours until Monday morning got shorter.
lnr From: lnr Date: September 9th, 2003 03:06 am (UTC) (Link)
*hugs*

I should go to bed earlier than I usually manage too. Perhaps things wouldn't be such hard work all the time if I wasn't permanently shattered. Doesn't help you much though if you can't sleep anyway.

I should probably make myself a similar list to be honest.
bookshop From: bookshop Date: September 24th, 2003 05:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hi! You don't know me from adam, but we have a mutual friend, jiggery_pokery, who suggested I check your journal out. forgive me for barging in! :)

I must stop being crap and avoidant about email; and I must stop using LiveJournal as a substitute for email, even if it feels much less stressful for some reason.

I just wanted to say that I have all kinds of problems with this exact same issue, and it feels SO good to know that it's not just me who has trouble answering email when LJ is so much more immediate. I really appreciated even reading that somebody else has to deal with that phenomena too--it makes me feel less lazy, I guess, and more inclined to see it for what it is--a desire for some kind of more *immediate* communication, whereas email feels so much less like real-time than LJ, for some reason.

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