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Don't underestimate the things that I will do
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aldabra From: aldabra Date: September 6th, 2013 09:07 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm wondering why that hasn't worked for me. Partly it's because there's only one of me, and by the time you're doing the to-ing and the fro-ing and the nap-supervision it's difficult to find a job which will fit round that and pay the rent. And consequently I'm only doing the job because it fits round that and pays the rent, and there isn't much over, and actually it's not part of my life, it's displacing my life which ought not to be co-opted into supporting a landlord-and-agent (and banker) class who are much richer than me already and are consuming my income fast enough that I'm never going to have an actual home.

But there's more to it than that. I stopped "having it all" when I started being in a full-time live-in relationship, when the time wasn't mine but ours. I stopped going to talks and meetings on my own, which I used to every night, and stayed in in evenings cooking and pottering instead. Sociably.

Never doing that again.

But I'm still staying in in the evenings cooking and pottering; it still doesn't seem reasonable to leave K on her own while I go out on optional jollies.
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