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Haven't felt so great since I first went west
I'm sleeping better. Okay, so I was shattered yesterday, but having been up till 4 a.m. drinking and stuff will always do that to me the next day. I'm feeling fine today, though, whereas until recently I'd have said that it would take me weeks to recover from a late night like that.

I'm cycling faster. I made it into work this morning in just under 20 minutes -- okay, that's probably slow for most people, but it's good going for me. Some of this is probably just the nicer weather meaning that I'm not carrying the extra weight of waterproofs and big coats, but normally I'd still be absolutely knackered after cycling fast for that long. As it is I felt a bit physically tired when I got in to work, but not deep-down bone-tired the way I have been feeling.

I don't seem to have a black cloud hanging over my thoughts all the time. I feel like I'm running to get ahead, not running to stand still. I don't feel like crying when I think about the future.

I'm not used to feeling like this. It feels like my body is bursting with energy, but not so much physical energy as emotional energy. Elemental energy. I feel like my skin's stretched tight over all the potential futures, waiting for something to break through.

I had a dream a couple of weeks ago where I was running along a road, and the sky was bright with dark clouds on either side of me, and the wind was lifting me up; I wasn't flying, just being carried along by the airstream. "Run faster!" I was shouting; "Can't you feel the storm gathering?"

I feel like I can outrun the storm.

Current Mood: wings unfurling
Now playing: Martyn Bennet, Martin Low: Hardland

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j4 From: j4 Date: April 23rd, 2003 06:35 am (UTC) (Link)

"Are you telling me I can dodge bullets?"
taimatsu From: taimatsu Date: April 23rd, 2003 04:55 am (UTC) (Link)
Hold that feeling :) I'm gflad to hear you feel good at the moment.
simonb From: simonb Date: April 23rd, 2003 05:08 am (UTC) (Link)
This is possibly due to the job change which is coming up; I know that I started to have similar feelings when I knew that I was going to get VR from WorldCom (or should I call them MCI now :)
julietk From: julietk Date: April 23rd, 2003 05:55 am (UTC) (Link)
fantastic! Long may it last :-)

rysmiel From: rysmiel Date: April 23rd, 2003 07:00 am (UTC) (Link)
*hug* this is most excellent, long may it last.
jiggery_pokery From: jiggery_pokery Date: April 24th, 2003 03:28 am (UTC) (Link)
What an excellent dream, and what a fine turn of events!
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