I feel as though a lot of my mental energy is being used up on struggling with decisions which will turn my life upside-down whatever I decide. I don't want to think about them really, but they're itching at the back of my head all the time, and no matter how much coffee I pour in there they don't go away. I need to decide what I really want to do, what I will and will not put up with ... and act on those decisions.
To be honest I feel like I need a month or so of time-out just to think about stuff without other pressures intruding and wearing me down; but I've no way of getting that at the moment. I also feel like I need to talk to the people who are or may be involved in these decisions; but I've got no way of doing that, either.
Next week is going to be hideously busy at work; in a way that may be a good thing, something to stop me trying to keep one eye on things that aren't there. And then the Folk Festival at the end of it, which will hopefully be some kind of a break. Though from what I'm not sure.
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Probably time I went home.