November 24th, 2003

hair

shards

... because thinking hurts, and trying not to think hurts, and there is no future any more, only a thick fog, and trying to see into the fog hurts, and just closing your eyes and waiting for it all to go away doesn't make it all go away, it just leaves you so alone in the dark...

... and you feel like you can't possibly go on like this, but there's no alternative except to stop going on at all, and to contemplate that alternative is to keep going on, imagination dead imagine.