July 14th, 2003


Those endless days

It's been so long since I updated this. I had an entry written at home, but ntl's poxy wouldn't let me post it, and I never got round to transferring it elsewhere.

Good things in the last few days:

  • Gorgeous flowers and chocolates from lnr -- thank you again love, the flowers are still brightening up the living room.

  • Ely Folk Festival -- two fantastic sets from the Oysterband; interesting music from Rory McLeod; good beer, good food, good company; playing with poi; watching morris dancing and rapier dancing; gorgeous weather.

  • Spending time with people I love.

  • Cycling a lot more; feeling vaguely physically fit again.

  • Balloon animals.

  • Armfuls of good books.

  • Blue skies, and white curtains blowing in the breeze.

Bad things in the past few days:

  • Drunken arguments with friends and loved ones.

  • Crying in the dark.

  • Not knowing what to do.

  • Work (ongoing miserable boredom).

  • Unwanted stress from a new acquaintance who described himself as a "free spirit" and said he didn't want much from me but is now lecturing me about how "open relationships" are supposed to work.

  • And one other worry which I can't talk about.

This morning I felt like the good things were winning. Now I feel like the bad things are getting the better of me again.

Just wish I knew what the hell I was doing with my life.
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