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So there's a thing in my brain that I want to write about but it's so huge and many-tentacled that I can't possibly wrestle it out of my head in one go, and I know that if I try to pull it out one limb at a time you'll all say "but that's not a genuine many-tentacled thing" or it'll keep crawling back in faster than I can drag it out. I'm not even sure if it is a many-tentacled thing or if it's actually something more like a mist or a colour that's seeped into my pores. Maybe it's a disease, or a new skin that I'm growing. I can't tell. Maybe it's a hopeless metaphor for a formless malaise.

I also don't know who's reading this any more. I'm terrible at keeping up with reading LJ myself, so I feel I can't really ask other people to read/comment on what I write; and while I sit there chewing my fingernails in that particular dark cave of fail, lots of beautiful friendships melt away. Who's reading this? Who's out there? Have you all gone to Dreamwidth? Should I follow you, or are we all just slowly dispersing into adulthood or beyond?

I don't know where I am. Or rather, I know where I am, but I don't know where anything else is. Either way, it's a bit cloud-tangled and mapless in here. Perhaps if someone shouts or shines a torch I'll be able to figure out where the voice or light is coming from.

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rysmiel From: rysmiel Date: November 20th, 2014 11:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
I am still reading here; also dw to some extent, mostly individuals who are not here much, but I will leave lj when it dies and not before, though I have gone all flocked for Reasons. Also, not planning on melting away any time soon.

Edited at 2014-11-20 11:14 pm (UTC)
livredor From: livredor Date: November 20th, 2014 11:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm mostly on Dreamwidth, but I do still read LJ. I'm happy to burble at you if you want to make posts and would find reactions reassuring.
nou From: nou Date: November 22nd, 2014 08:32 am (UTC) (Link)
Ditto to these things.
geekette8 From: geekette8 Date: November 20th, 2014 11:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
I am here and not really on dreamwidth. (I do have an account there but only use it to read comments oon protected posts that i saw crossposted here.)

Always interested in anything you have to say but frequently fail to actually comment.....!
emperor From: emperor Date: November 21st, 2014 12:11 am (UTC) (Link)
*waves*
cjwatson From: cjwatson Date: November 21st, 2014 12:46 am (UTC) (Link)

*wave*, I'm paying roughly the same attention to both LJ and DW because people I love are spread across both so I just read both at about the same frequency.  Any kind of lengthy comment is hard because of some annoying bug between LJ and my laptop's browser, but perhaps one day I will figure that out.  Hope you feel less bemisted soon ...

crazyscot From: crazyscot Date: November 21st, 2014 05:51 am (UTC) (Link)
I read here and DW, though both have been mighty quiet at times lately.
cleanskies From: cleanskies Date: November 21st, 2014 06:45 am (UTC) (Link)
Still reading; and also struggling with big things that are hard to talk about. See you Sunday
taimatsu From: taimatsu Date: November 21st, 2014 06:50 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm still here! *hug*
timscience From: timscience Date: November 21st, 2014 07:03 am (UTC) (Link)
Still reading. Don't oftern post here anymore but read it every day.
jinty From: jinty Date: November 21st, 2014 07:35 am (UTC) (Link)
think you know I'm here, and R too - IRL too of course, pretty regularly! Formless many-tentacled things are go?
hairyears From: hairyears Date: November 21st, 2014 08:02 am (UTC) (Link)
Who, me?

Yes, still here. I'd appreciate it if you crossposted to DreamWidth but, yes, I'm still reading LJ.

And the many-tentacled monsters of my subconscious are mostly reduced to the size and status of those difficult-to-extract sticky bogeys that you just *have* to pick at, and can't.
venta From: venta Date: November 21st, 2014 08:29 am (UTC) (Link)

Hello, present and reading (here but not DW).


Formless tentacled things sometimes actually are less of a thing if dragged out and given form. Sometimes not, of course. I think we've probably all been in the same position, so unlikely to diss the quality of your tentacles if you bring them out for inspection.

ewx From: ewx Date: November 21st, 2014 08:53 am (UTC) (Link)
Still here!
aldabra From: aldabra Date: November 21st, 2014 09:48 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm here, and not there. My usefulness quotient varies a lot, though.
rmc28 From: rmc28 Date: November 21st, 2014 09:58 am (UTC) (Link)
*waves*
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